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04 August 2014 @ 12:34 am
Failure. A word I think most people familiarly ponder to themselves when considering their life path. Am I a failure as a friend,parent, student, sibling, etcetera. I've been pondering that word a lot. See recently I was faced with a dilemma that no individual ever wants to face. REJECTION. How does one handle that beast?

If you are like me, you blame yourself. You come up with the all the ways you are not perfect. How if you were skinniner more men would like you? Or if you were smarter you could attract more people. I recently came up with the realization that most people don't like me because I'm not myself. I look at the books on my bookshelf and most are from college, but which books represent me as a person. What music represents music I didn't find from fandom? Who am I?

It really sucks I'm having an identity crisis so late in the game at 25. But when you're engaged for a third of your life, you become a part of an entity that you don't really focus on the I. It's time I start. Also,I really need to get my butt into gear with working out. Still the same weight. (I love Sushi too much).

Signing off from the temples of loneliness and doom,