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20 May 2013 @ 03:03 pm
Goodbye Fresno.  
Today is the beginning of my last few months in Fresno. As I transition into a new life in San Francisco, I want to reflect on the life I've had here. The amount of changes I have made for myself. I want to create a scrapbook. After I go to the gym, I'm going to Michaels and starting to collect things I want in my scrapbook. I want to share the images and the memories, hoping it will influence me to work harder and to be a better person.

I have met some amazing people here and I thought along the way, I'd share the experiences with my tumblr followers, my livejournal. Anyone who will listen to me. I realized my need for attention online was because I so desperately push away my own thoughts and ideals in reality to make others happy or satisfied. Fresno has oddly enough brought out a side of me, I didn't know I had. I don't need to apologize to anyone. I'm me. Let me describe me.

I'm 24, originally from Milwaukee. I watch way too much television and care way too much about celebrity gossip. I go crazy over Joss Whedon television, but if you ask me other nerd references, I will look at you stupid because I seriously have no clue what you are talking about. I enjoy fashion, but I don't have the body type to pull off a lot of clothes I want to. I have gone from being a size 24 to a size 14/12 in the last year. I hate eating fruits and vegetables, but now I have transition myself to do it just because I want to be healthy. I won't lie to anyone, I'd rather be eating either a California Burrito or a Wendy's Baconator Burger. I was formerly engaged and sometimes I think about entering that relationship again because I'm lonely. I have a lot of crazy guy stories, but mostly I think its my delusional ass thinking everyones in love with me. Again, I watch way too much tv.

I contemplate always what my passions are because I'm absolutely fickle in my wants, needs, desires. I get over people, the way I do television shows. If you are a good series, I'll hang out with you and watch you all or listen to you all the time. If you are a bad show, that blows a lot of holes into plots and generally make me want to rage, I'll keep watching you because I feel compelled to originally, but eventually I will get sick of your shit and I will be done with you. I just compared people to television. Great.

Anyways, Day 1.

Stats: Majorly unhappy with my laziness and natural need to want to do nothing.
Netflix: Take this Waltz, Star Trek (episode 3, season 1) Fat Kid Rules the World, Pretty and Pink. (It's only three o clock here)
Exercise: None yet, Planned: Upper Body strength training, One hour of Zumba, as much jogging I can fit into my schedule before Zumba starts.
Current Mood: lazylazy
Jessicakitiara1304 on May 22nd, 2013 08:04 am (UTC)
Life's always interesting when it's in transition. Enjoy it!

Sorry about the double post. LJ logged me out while I was posting.
Yvette: pic#120922019fickleheart on May 23rd, 2013 08:57 am (UTC)
Oh, its okay. :D I feel like I will be able to appreciate this change more. My previous move brought new opportunities for me, but I also lost a lot. I'm waiting to see how well I will adjust this time.